Leaving Discords... (posted here since it was deleted)

[qwertheangmarim]

My Goodbyes
As I'm sure at least some of you have noticed, I've been a little... emotionally unregulated as of late. It's not an excuse, but IRL... my life is circling the drain, it feels like, and every time I take a step forward, woosh! Another spin...

In game hasn't been much different, with the whole Donut rallying against me and my entire friendgroup.

So I'm leaving Gen Discords. I'll still be accessible through DMs from friends and people I like, but Genesis Mud Official is no longer the safe, happy place it once was, all those years ago when I first joined. Genesis 2.0 was never a happy place tho, nothing changed there

I'll still play the Game, albeit less so... my primary motivations have been growing, which is quite impossible when you're being hunted down for repeat kills, and helping BDA, but as is my very presence endangers them.

I started Gen 5 years ago, it was the perfect escape in an unusually bad time in my generally less than ideal life, it was a great escape. I made friends fast and often, and the world was my oyster, Gen back then was... more positive. I fell in love with it fast. I took a long break so shortly after joining, over 9 months if memory serves. The world I came back too was even better than it was before, and I joined the Genesis Mud Official discord. I still remember my first conversation with Cherek, meeting an absolute legend. If I was ever going to drop off, that cemented Gen in my heart, a place where the head of the whole beautiful operation would speak to a 13 year old adept, completely inept and new to the world. Two more years passed, growing, loving Gen, meeting amazing people (Goldie will always be my hero) and becoming the RO of AA.

When I came back again from a long break, I encountered my first troubles... AA was dying and I met Muzan, easily my most turbulent relationship of all time. AA lost all activity and I left, aimless. I met Harlot one day in the wonderful city of Kabal, a land of moral complications and contradictions, but so so beautiful. I ended up joining BDA, and shortly after, I was killed by Muzan. Around this time, IRL life started going downhill again, we moved away from my home city. I flipped out, unreasonably so, and harrassed and even verbally abused Muzan for weeks. It was bad, full of mistakes from my end.

BDA and Beni were there through all of it, a steady rock, grounding me and keeping me in love with the wonders of Genesis. It all felt so... limitless, I could achieve anything, and there were no real conflicts, no large scale harrasment, people talked without hatred for thir fellow players. The Discord, sure, there were heated debates, but between friends.

Gen 2.0 sucked tho, that's kinda just constant.

Now... things are so far from that. It's not healthy. And I really can't handle it well or maturely so I'm stepping back. This isn't what I fell in love with, bullying, harrasment, and just cruelty and disdain for other people. I can only hope that people will eventually find their peace, and Gen will be the welcoming world many of us joined again.

Some special shoutouts...
Harlot - Obviously. A friend like no other, and no one could ask for a better one. The legendary General of the Blue

Beni - I hope you'll return someday, and we can hang about more. I miss you but always hoping for the best for your IRL life (:

Amaru - A wonderful friend and ever a calming presence, I consider you one of my best friends.

Goldbezie - If there was a perfect human, no need to look further than our very own MythBezie. Soul of a saint, heart of a dragon. The crown jewel of the Genesis community, always welcoming with newbies and encouraging people to be their best selves.

BDA - all of it, best community in Genesis, *mayyyybe* monks can compete. Maybe . Full of wonderous people and with the sexiest Genesis chat.

Buddah - I'll admit, there were times where your endless riddles confused me to the point of walking away, but you're a gem. Never change (:

Hunter - We used to be great friends, hunting nightly. The reason for my growth at one point, now a reason for my death, and many deaths to come. I regret losing you as a friendly deeply, and if I could go back and change the Coven War from ever starting, I would bring it back to when we were all friends. Sadly, I can't, and I stick by my side. That doesn't mean I don't miss having you as a friend tho

Anniyas - We never really hung so much in-game, but there was a nice time when, even through the Coven Wars start, I felt like I could talk to you abt things I rarely shared with anyone, through difficult times. I miss it, as with Hunter.

Yeren - You got a good kill, caught me with my pants down at the worst possible time. First, as you've promised, of many. Hence why I'm stepping away from the game somewhat as well. You've created... an interesting time, quite unlike any other I've experienced. I'm sure it brings you and yours great satisfaction, as a game should, but it's not a world I'd like to share in is all.

I'll miss most everyone, and I hope there's a future in Gen for me and Qwer. One without being hunted down, and my friends targetted. We'll see, I suppose.

It's been real, y'all...

Qwer's Player.

PS To be clear, I'm not leaving because "oh no I died once", I'm stepping back due to the threat of continued harassment and Yeren's threats and attacks against vastly smaller BDAs in a targeted effort to hurt the guild. Old tactic, I'm sure many on his side will cheer for it, but it's not something I can stand.

PPS Goldie, we should do that interview soon.

[Anniyas]

I hope you are able to take a step back and see that there really isn't anyone against you, and that you find peace in your life and in the game.

Good luck to you and see you around!

[Thalric]

Is this a new thing?

Once people wrote notes here before ragequitting Genesis, the game...
Are we now in a place where it's also done for quitting the discord?
It's an online chatroom...

[tor]

I think people would generally have a much better time in this community if they paid more attention to separation of their in-game roleplayed character from their real self on Discord. Example: Harlot seems lovely on Discord, I've enjoyed reading their well-thought out suggestions on game issues and banter from time to time. Though we haven't engaged much, I respect her. In-game we probably would want to fight, this is *ok* and I think not an issue for either party. I'm not a hill dwarf IRL.

I've noticed that you, Qwer's player, in particular, has some difficulty (or disinterest) in this idea of separation. Can't say I was any different in my teens or 20s, it's understandable that some people just don't want to leave the game's bubble on the Discord server.

For some, they are more comfortable that their character is their real self and their real self is their character. IMO, this will inevitably result in conflict on the Discord because everyone has a different way of presenting themselves there. Some of the large old players who should know better are the most "school bully" behaved people around who don't seem to think twice about driving players from the game.

On griefing:

Repeated killings for the same offense is griefing. If this happens in the game without some nuance applied by other factors, it either will be addressed by the AoP, or KoG should intervene. Not only that, the big players who are primarily interested in the continued success/longevity of the game, and not primarily interested in childlike clique-y behavior should emphatically turn on and shun those who engage in griefing/bullying.

I'm not apprised of the situation enough to know whether or not griefing has occurred, but if it does, I'm saying that there are protections in place.

[Anniyas]

I think people would generally have a much better time in this community if they paid more attention to separation of their in-game roleplayed character from their real self on Discord. Example: Harlot seems lovely on Discord, I've enjoyed reading their well-thought out suggestions on game issues and banter from time to time. Though we haven't engaged much, I respect her. In-game we probably would want to fight, this is *ok* and I think not an issue for either party. I'm not a hill dwarf IRL.

I've noticed that you, Qwer's player, in particular, has some difficulty (or disinterest) in this idea of separation. Can't say I was any different in my teens or 20s, it's understandable that some people just don't want to leave the game's bubble on the Discord server.

For some, they are more comfortable that their character is their real self and their real self is their character. IMO, this will inevitably result in conflict on the Discord because everyone has a different way of presenting themselves there. Some of the large old players who should know better are the most "school bully" behaved people around who don't seem to think twice about driving players from the game.

On griefing:

Repeated killings for the same offense is griefing. If this happens in the game without some nuance applied by other factors, it either will be addressed by the AoP, or KoG should intervene. Not only that, the big players who are primarily interested in the continued success/longevity of the game, and not primarily interested in childlike clique-y behavior should emphatically turn on and shun those who engage in griefing/bullying.

I'm not apprised of the situation enough to know whether or not griefing has occurred, but if it does, I'm saying that there are protections in place.

This, 100%. If there are concerns of in-game abuse, go to the powers that be for support. They are there for a reason and regardless of outspoken personal perspective of whether or not it is effective-- it is the most effective when there is consistent reporting. Powers can't act if things are not brought in for question.

Separation from character is so important. Sometimes people have trouble with that, and sometimes people are surrounded by people who have trouble with that and it makes for very, very muddy waters and really can impact your RL psyche and stress levels because relationships outside of the game *do* develop. I think I'd have trouble with it too if I were younger and was worried about my friends, so I get it. People who can't separate go through real stress when it comes to Gen, that's when we need to look hard in the mirror and decide what boundaries we need and if steps away need to be taken. Addiction and projection of self is very real in this game.

Here's hoping for healthy turn arounds! <3

[qwertheangmarim]

Is this a new thing?

Once people wrote notes here before ragequitting Genesis, the game...
Are we now in a place where it's also done for quitting the discord?
It's an online chatroom...

It's not like I didn't try posting it in Discord... Twice. I conversed with a mod and we thought it was alright, but the team re-evaluated after I did it and it was ruled against. So I was relegated to the forums or the in game board